| | Please just kill the drama. That is the last thing I need right
now. Apparently, a certain someone took things out of proportion
and went above and beyond to no longer consider me a friend. I am
dead to this person, which is fine. How did this person make a
mountain out of a molehill? One mistake was made and all of a
sudden, the atomic bomb is dropped.
Everything said yesterday was immature, I take the fall for my
part. They may take theirs if they know they mistakes. It
puzzles me how something so little turned into something so big,
something that became betrayal. Obviously, I was not meant to
cross paths with this someone. I sensed that I might do something
to spark the plug. That's what happened, the bomb dropped and now
ties are cut. Should I be in a position of lonliness, anger, and
sadness? I cannot mourn such a sad cause because it was never
worth the tears. Losing someone over something little is not
worth the pain to go through.
I know I am not a perfect person. I know I have problems and I do
not need to seek out the aid of a pill to change my mood. My
thinking is not linear, I can find other solutions to problems and
explore options. I may be in college and you may say it really
does not matter. You may have your street smarts, but how is that
going to get you anywhere you want to be? Good luck
with that, it can only take you so far. We all know that we
desire the best from life and I don't know if you live up to
that. I may not know exactly in what direction I would like to go
now, but at least I have more of option to find that something.
I am not going to sit here and dwell. You say how miserable my
life is going to be. That's fine, I am officially finished with
discussing you and you may still be dwelling on me. To each his
own, but if you are going to cut me out of your life be done and move
on. Obviously, you are the one who is the child here, I should not
have even relayed messages to you back and forth. I,
unfortunately, stooped to your level and played your game. I
should not have even bothered, I should have let it be. You
should too, if I am dead to you. How will you make my life a
living hell? Try as you must, I will come out above you and show
you who's the mature person in this battle you claim. You can
attempt to do anything to make me miserable. Is that all you have
to do? It's ok, do what you want as I have said before. A
more mature approach would be that you and I part ways. I
have. I hold no grudges, I realized that. If you hold
grudges forever, you've pretty much made your life a living hell.
To you I say, don't dwell, move on.
If ever in another lifetime, which you think is never, you find
it in your heart to forgive me, I could not. Your approach
to such a petty situation became too big. Now that is what I call
juvenile. You may physically be an adult, but you are still a
child inside too. I admit that I am not perfect and I know I have
problems. I may need to see a therapist, but I know I don't need
an outside source to aid me in happiness. Happiness should come
naturally, not artificially. I know for a fact I could not
forgive, not based on what happened in the duration of a night, but
simply because of the actions you decided to take. No chances
given, even then I still could not accept you as friend. If that
were to happen in another lifetime. To you I say, I am NOW
officially through.
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| | Posted 6/24/2005 10:20 AM - 1 View
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